Lately though, I've been feeling a need to stop and remember that dream.
LA is a great place to get really distracted. The past few months I feel like I've been doing just that. I can hear God telling me to stop and spend time with him but I look at my schedule and don't see any possibilities. Everyone here is always on the run, always loaded down and stressed with trying to maintain all of these things at once. And unfortunately I have found myself caught up with them recently. The greatest thing about the realization of this, is that I know it's not where I'm supposed to be. And the worst thing about it is that time has gone by and I haven't drawn nearer to God. I've drifted farther away. So here I am, looking back to remember why I'm here, why I'm chasing this dream, what I need to do along the way to serve God with the blessings he has given me.
Isn't that what we follow our dreams for? To better serve God? To bring peace to our hearts? Yet this world is so good at giving you other things to steer you away from what you're trying to do. The world gives us "good enough" when really we were meant to be more than good enough! The world is scared! So they lie to you to dumb you down to their level. Don't believe the negative things about yourself that bring fear in your life...that cripples your full potential!
I'm not sure what my future looks like but the beauty of it all is that God has his own plan and all I have to do is stay close to him and he'll lead me there safely. I have learned that if you're focused on the day to day all the time and aren't thinking about why you're doing it all, it is easy to get side tracked and lead down the wrong path.
C.S. Lewis says it best:
"We all want progress, but if you're on the wrong road, progress means doing an about-turn and walking back to the right road; in that case, the man who turns back soonest is the most progressive."
